Nothing

I've been gone a while, I know.

I want so much to be back here and write and write and write until I can't write anymore but...

I just can't.

I can't seem to get my writing rhythm back.

Plus, I'm just not sure what to write about anymore. Working from home and not having classes this summer makes things pretty quiet. And thus, I've had very little inspiration to work with. Even when I do feel inspired, I put it off so long that the inspiration fades and there's no longer a need to put it on here. And yes, I'm lazy. Sometimes, I'm just too lazy and tired to put my thoughts out there.

I'm also been wary of putting too much on here. I censor myself a lot - much more than I have in the past. I'm constantly worried that I'm going to inadvertently offend someone, or that someone will take something out of context. So, it's easier for me to avoid it altogether. And I hate that. I want to feel free to write what I want to without someone getting their panties in a bunch. I know I shouldn't care about what other people think, but I do, and I'm always haunted by past posts that have offended people that I shouldn't have put out there (no matter how innocently they were intended).

BUT, then again, I shouldn't have a blog, right? I should just write in a journal. But... I like getting feedback from people and being able to connect with others. But, then again, that doesn't exactly happen on here and hasn't for a long time, so.... maybe I should just get back to writing in a journal.

GAH - I don't know. I feel crabby. And tired. And as though I have nothing to say. And I really don't. (Despite what the above whining may resemble...) I'm going to bed.